"do you really not know how much you're missed?"

now only then do i know why some people blog.

"just when i thought i have already hit the bottom of my emotions, you proved me wrong."

"我们的爱就像这杯咖啡，冷了，也苦了。"

"断了的弦"

"我不难过"

"分手快乐"

some things i've gotta do:
1. fix itouch
2. clear room!
3. clean room!

mhmmm i dno why, but i just miss u, and quite badly i guess. was looking through the convos we had. u were the one who ever got the closest to me, but yet now u'r nowhere within my reach. i just wish we cld be the close friends that we used to be, though i know that's almost impossible. circumstances have changed, i've changed, u've changed, and many other things have. maybe it's the post-a's time, when some have a bit more time to think through life and have the time to reflect more upon the past. from the archives, i saw that u were once like that, and guess it's my turn to go through it too. though (i think) u did not wait, and we're like strangers now (and we said we wanted to still be friends), but i still treasure that time and hold it close to my heart, for in retrospect, it is the most beautiful thing that had happened to me thus far, albeit it being the most painful one. now, i only wish u all the best for ur future, and if our lives ever cross again, i hope...

- summy (chick)

hahaha lol i'm actually back, how rare. mhmmm anws so fast, this race is about to reach its end le, and soon a new one will begin (: hope for the best!

mood: random

childhood. innocence. forgiving. understanding. prompt. psoriasis. stress. relationships. youth got heart. you can give. iu trip. handover. a's. adventist. yec. cycling. y-confidence. not regretting. disappointment. competition. complexity. sat. ns. tutorials. tests. jc. poly. ite. mentoring. open-minded. accepting. reflecting. learning. finished. bye.

okay, i think it has been long enough le. so let's just get straight to the pt.

1. I really thank and appreciate whatever u've done for me, not only the editting of i&r but other stuff as well. i rmb i do say thank you at least, and though i may not sound OR look grateful, i am actually if u realise / know me well enough. i'm very sry if u felt otherwise

2. oh yar, on top of thanking the 5 ppl for buying me the bdae gift, i forgot to also thank 3 of them who took time off their free day to go catch a movie with me one day after my bdae *random* though i may not looked as if i enjoyed it, i still really appreciate the effort that u guys (it's guys leh) even bothered to make yar. srys also if u guys felt unappreciated and irritating. so now on to clarifications.

3. i must say i def enjoyed "Stardust", though there were like annoying and weird rg girls totally screaming at the wrong moments, intentionally. however, after that, it was another matter altogether. first, i wanted to play pool, but i had to keep in mind that there was one of them in sch u, so yar out. then was mahjong. though i din mention then, i was contemplating whether to go someone's hse play mahjong cos i know i have some forum stuff ltr on at 7. but i really din mind not going for it, if the mahjong session could last long enough. but somehow it was not the case la. then i thot okay la, then just do as one of them suggested, sit down and talk loh, and somehow fate did make it turn out to be the case. pls understand, i would try to save money as far as possible cos i know i NEED to. unless it's like pool, dont pay cannot play, then tt's a diff story. however, if it's like buying food to eat ah, sry hor no. not even if it's like some mcs or lousy kopitiam or sth. if i was given the chance, i will try to avoid as MUCH as possible to buy food. it's just me la, for those who really know me well enough, which i reckon it's not a lot, or mayb even none. nvm. move on, next.

4. like mentioned early, i had half the mind not to go for the forum thingy cos i had a feeling that it'll b quite sian one, which did indeed turn out to be true. but then again part of me says that it is part of my obligation to go cos this's like the first "event" to put it that i have under my post in tpccyec. so yar loh, but then so let fate decide loh, in the MOST unconventional way. that is, if somehow the outing lasts beyond 6+ 7, then obviously not go la, but then if otherwise, i shall go then. okay la, i dont know, mayb it's my looks + my tone and the way i put it across + wtv happened b4hand, ppl kinda mistook my meaning as "i'm like sick of ur company and i'm like ditching u now" kinda thing when i said that i have some forum thingy ltr on at 7pm when the outing was gonna end at arnd 5+pm. but tt really wasnt what i meant la. if anyone of u feel it that way, i will take this opportunity to say a deep sorry cos i really din meant it that way, and if it has caused ath negative, i sincerely apologise as well.

yar, so hope that kinda helps a bit, esp to clarify and clear up some stuff, if someone actually bothers to read this. there's more to today la, but nvm... sighs. bye ppl, off to work again, which wont last too long le...

p.s. might wanna ignore the previous post

mood: pissed off and irritated

i think i just absolutely hate it when ppl just make assumptions? esp assumptions abt me which i think it's not right. like pls even bother clarifying first? pls, think, i'm not dumb or no feelings or wtv so. nvm. and not stepping out of his/her own pov and try to look at things at another pov, trapped in some pathetic and locked position. forget it. hopeless. bye.

mood: understandable

terms that are/were used ever so often in my first half a year in rj...
saigang
tua pai / big shot
competitive
recognition
fake
exclusive
... and many many more which i cannot think of now of cos ya.

some ppl r sad cos they hav a lot of stuff to do and to commit themselves to, while some ppl r sad and disappointed cos there's nth much for him to commit himself to. what holds in the future? i feel disillusioned. ÎÒÀÛÁË£¬ÕæµÄÀÛÁË¡£i need a break. bye.

p/s to who it may concern, i know what u mean for the day of adventist preparation, but nvm. after all all of us r different, and we all have different sides of ourselves that some may see, some may not. sighs. i'm not in an excellently good mood now anws, which i think it's obvious.

mood: kinda a bit moody too? hahah...

hi ppl! hahah anws not much interesting things last wk? ok 2 la, one: got stuck in the rj lift for like 55 mins? hahah! then missed pe, awww... that was thurs... oh yupps some photos in the lift hah! http://www.flickr.com/photos/7529711@N08 credit goes to ben oi =D AND two: managed to catch "Mr Bean's Holiday" with 3 other og mates, addy, james and guying! and took neos after that hahah! has been quite some time since i took neos hehs =/ oh ya, had moe pre-u scholarship interview b4 that too haha. oh wkend was like boring as usual? just trying to catch up with schwork, like AGAIN. yup right.

ok then this wk mon, today. wah first time go to sch so many things (posters whatnots) on the councillors' campaigning... like really "wow". great work and effort i must say these nominees have put in, and so here's wishing all the nominees good luck hah! had interact club interview then odac which turned out to be exco nomination. kinda share the same sentiments as yeow hua la... the worries and all... and plus sometimes i start to think if i should have gone and tried for the councillor's interview... like liu yi tiao hou lu for myself loh... just in case both odac and interact club happen to burst. yupps like u say yeow hua, we'r kinda in the same boat now la, so i can also understand how u feel... but dont worry. i think it'll b fine... and at most till thurs ba le... hahah u make me feel like i want to angst too la hehs. actually the qns that u ask, i've thought abt it myself also... how my jc life's gonna turn out to be... good or bad, fruitful or no results, just another guo cheng that i ve to go thru... guess xian zai zhi neng zou yi bu suan yi bu ba..., till ltr when things r more settled or so? but by then am i able to change or do ath abt the status then... sighs anws got homework and stuff and need to bathe hah (& chat)! so gtg.. byebye! =)...